Th-Capricious

2009-06-23T23:52:00.003+08:00

Nobody will ever be able to read my thoughts and never, will I let anyone do that.

For the person who sees everything in you, knows how to hurt you best.

I've learnt that, but never learnt love.

How I wish, I could return to the past and rewrite history.

2009-06-21T16:42:00.004+08:00

What's love, I ponder.

I came to a realisation that, I'm clueless when it comes to it.

For, love was never a part of my life before, and that nobody is worth loving in this world, or at least, the ones I now know aren't.

*Edits: She's found her love now. Thankfully. :)

2009-06-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

Basketball today with brother.

He treated me to Cheese Baked Spaghetti w Chicken Chop this afternoon at Xin Wang with some side dish and drinks.

Bills was $67.

Fucked some little kiddo up and home to DotA.

Super lifeless.

I'm tagged right now.

437 Days till I'm free.

Someone help, disimprison me.

2009-06-14T22:18:00.001+08:00

I certainly can't deny that I'm the utmost candidate for the epitamin of LAZE!

Bugis today with Ling. *Full-stop.

Waiting for Xuan to town with me for my upcoming Gucci belt. :)

Tata.

2009-06-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhh! White hair are streaming all over my head now! I'm stressed stressed stressed out! I forgot all about my POA homework and now, there's a BSE test tomorrow. Eff that badly I'm swearin' it~!

Forget it. Got to wake up earlier tomorrow to revise, seriously revise. I know nothing besides PEST and SWOT. LOLS~ ==

Anyway, I'll be updating, super rarely, and as for the links, I'll do them up pretty soon!

Bear with me sweethearts.

That'll be all. :)

2009-05-29T22:48:00.002+08:00

That previous post was in my drafts for a very long time. I wanted to only post it after I got the pictures and stuffs but I was lazy so I just put it up.

Ahs, great. School is crap nowadays I think.

Many things had happened and many are still happening and ongoing.

I'm bothered.

2009-05-16T21:17:00.005+08:00

Friday
Amy's father came to kick up a fuss at the school.
Went to school.
Joey and Linus went for counselling.
We waited in class for them.
Amy and family brought to police station.
Lunch with Huda and company at Mac.
We waited for them at block 400s after lunch.
Played truth or dare, went home.

My trip to Town with mother was cancelled as I woke up at 1300 hours today. Sadded D:

However, it was made up for by my Family!

Went to Town with Ah Zu, Mimi and Xiao Pig. :) Linus too, but only for a while as he has to work.

Walked about, window-shop, and went for pool games! I totally kick their ass in it.

Bus-ed to Clementi to Joey's place then after. Dined at her place and her mother is super cute.

Rushed back due to time restriction. Tata~

2009-05-14T21:00:00.010+08:00

Finally, I'm back to write! Hehes :) Been pretty long isn't it?
Alright here I go .....

Recently, I adopted four unwanted morons to be my fateful daughters.
From left:
Xiao Pig, Ah Zu, Mimi and Xiao Xiong

Thursday/Today, May 14, 2009

Went to school this morning for PE. Lunched in school after PE and then went to Khong Guan Factory.

Its a boring factory and the industrial trip isn't entertaining at all. Still, we had fun however as a class.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Received word from Huda that Aunt Jo is on medical leave too, so we again, took the by-left option and went to slack!

We first ate at the Market at Clementi Central. Had a plate of Char Kway Teow and Wanton Noodles. xD

Then, got to know of Amy's unfateful happenings and were very demoralised. Went to Joey's house to discuss what to do and we all except for Xiao Pig and Ah Zu napped all over the place.
And this is cute me! :D Super cute right?!?! I know I know! A lot of people say so. :)
Slept to my fill, actually not really, as I was awoken by idiots as they claim to be bored to watch us nap! Then received a text from Huda saying that the section head is after us this time.

Returned to school shortly for OFA/nagging session and as we're leaving Ah Zu's place, I was snapped at by god-knows-who when I'm tying my laces. ==
*Sigh* So good looking even when I'm tying my laces right? xD
Lee Pui Kuan is on medical leave too. == After the nagging session ended, we're dismissed early as our OFA assignments are already completed far ahead of time.

Went to the block 200s to slack with Family Clique and Hilmi and company, and had sticks! :)
Slacked till my time's up and I left for MCYS again as he isn't done extracting information from me. On our way there, they wanted to take another Family Clique photo. :)So I headed there again, and my two daughters and son-in-law accompanied me there and back again! You guys are really the best!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Aunt Jo was on medical leave and by right, we're not supposed to leave the school campus as we're supposed to be in school. But anyway, I was late, and came to realise that my Family Clique went ahead to Lakeside to slack.

So, I met them at Lakeside before we bus back to school very soon for BSE.

We slacked after class, and then I had to leave for MCYS at Toa Payoh. My filial daughters, Xiao Pig and Panda, with JJ too! :) I love them! They always accompany me everywhere despite the long journey and distance.

Really, thanks, I'm thankful and grateful for your company. And Xiao Pig should be grateful for someone elses's company? :P

Monday, May 11, 2009

Everyone's having Monday blues today except for those usual ones snapping pictures away. Look at everyone in BSE lesson.
Then there's this moron with a blurred look on her face! This was snapped on a rainy day when we're about to leave school for the 200s to slack! Hilmi and co. joined us too later but they aren't in the pictures. :) Fun everyday in school slacking with all my beloved classmates.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Went over to Ling's place. Jasmine's there too, and this is her baby! Cute right?! Hahas. Her mother invited me to dinner with them too, but 'cuz of my probation, I couldn't join them, so I went home! :)

Had Sakae Sushi lunch earlier with Father and Sister too. Super filling and nice. :)

Friday, May 8, 2009

This was snapped in the afternoon before Amy left us for home. Super sweet right? Scandalous piece of shit couple. Lols. So hair-raising, making my skin crawl la!

Then after Amy left, we went to Bugis! Met everyone at Bugis' control station before we all left for the movie.This is our class outing! Its at the theatre at Bugis. Cool right? Man, my classmates are all so lovable.

Totally enjoyed it! Especially, those sitting in front of me (Huda, Mashy, Michelle), they received rain of pop corns from above. :)

Finally, thanks to Aunt Jo for the treat and she's always so forgiving, lovable big family I've got here in ITE. That's the biggest gift I received since I step foot into ITE. :) Thank god for that.

Stay happy before the moment of truth arrives. :)

Tag Replies
Xiao Pig: 乖！and your pa is always cute one kay? :D
Xiao Xiong: Lols, I'll see about it. Because your ah gong is spastic.
Mimi: What? Don't anyhow call me for free. Need to pay one ley!
Momo: What SIGINA! Your lao beh okay?! Respect! and this blog is revived. :)
Clairis: Lols jealous?
Ah Gong: Spastic father.
Siew Hwan: You tag without your link ley moron! Lols.

2009-05-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

Okays, many are complaining that my blog is dying as I'm very lazy to write anything. So here I am!

School these few days are fine and Hello Panda had been meeting me early to "late" with me. Lols! She went to Yew Tee to wait for me today and I treated her Ice Peach Tea. Yeaha~! Tomorrow will be the same too.

School is super fun for me but lots of social issues surfaced throughout the weeks we've been together.

Affectionate class as so many couples had already started popping up. :D

Tomorrow is the outing, hope it'd be better than expected.

Tatas!

I let go of the past, and choose to hate you to my very best.
I yearn for you to do badly in life, and hope you tumble into the gallows, I hate you to the core, and wish to watch you fail. I curse and I swear at you.
When 04/05 came again, I returned to your blog, hoping to see you write about our past. Now, I hate you more.

2009-05-06T22:36:00.001+08:00

I am super lazy to post lately.

Hahahas. xD

So, bye~

Will write when something interesting occur, maybe on Friday about the class outing.

Tatas.

2009-04-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

Returned to school today!

I so missed my classmates! :D and I hope they did too!

OFA today was superbly boring. While Pui Kuan was going through assignment 6/7, I already finished 9. So super lame and bored.

Then was COB, but its kinda crap as we got dismissed from lessons after some annoucements and stuffs.

Break time! Had lunch at KFC while the girls had theirs at the market. Met up later at Mos Burger for a talk. For once in my life, I feel like a magistrate addressing a case. xD

Court dismissed and we went back to school shortly.

Then was BSE which sucked totally. His neverending speeches are hypnotic! They're the perfect sleeping pill for everyone!

Snapped a picture of Hello Panda out of boredom as she's acting cute non-stop beside me. Shall post it later as I'm lazy to upload. ^^

Class dismissed, attended CARE for some short briefing and left for Lot1.

Meet Yang and beloved Clairis! :D Had a hair cut and Yang went home shortly. Girlfriend went to study and I waited for her studies to end. Slacked together until I'm beat and left home together. :)

Kays, tata~

2009-04-27T19:17:00.004+08:00

~Tag Replies~
Amy: Cute ma! :DDD Hehehes.
Massu: Lols moron!
Jovell: Hellos!
Ka Ceng: I thought I was discreet about it already?! How did you find this again?!

Monday
Went to court again this afternoon.

I'd most probably be struck down with probation. The next mention would be a month later and within this 4 weeks, they would gather information and come up with a conclusion to find out if I'm eligible for probation. I would be most probably. :D

Returned home after court to sleep as I'm tired. :) Guess my classmates miss me. Hahahas. :)

Slept the whole afternoon and just woke up. Eaten and I'm still tired. xD

Sleeping early today. :)

I don't know what I'm doing nowadays. I hurt my loved ones and I think I'm a very detestable person. Very sorry, Xia. I'm so glad I cleared things up with you, or I'd be guilty for life.

Now its Gwen, I done you wrong. But stop pushing me to the limits!

2009-04-25T01:34:00.005+08:00

~Tag Replies~
Massu: Lols, rubbish sia you. Out to spoil my reputation man!
Momo: Sorry la boss. My fault.
Clairis: Hahahas! My bad Part-time girlfriend! xD

Friday

Late for an hour for Aunt Jo's lesson. Super guilty for that, and it led me to yet, another absent on my attendance. Screw that.

Bought Linus lemon tea, which made me miss two trains, and waited twenty minutes at the bus stop at Clementi for the bloody bus to get to school and that, seriously sucked.

Went for Sunny Chow's lesson then after, which was waste of time once again.

But anyway, went with the Clique to Central again to lunch and this time, Yang and Van joined me or rather, us.

Went on ahead to Causeway Point hoping to get my N5800's software updated/fixed but the "guy" there told me it'd be four hours' wait if its software issue and a few days' wait if its the hardware that is faulty. Screw that too.

Slacked, had McFlurry and headed to Sembawang to meet my beloved part-time girlfriend! :D Been super long since I last met her. Went to town to watch "17 Again" and it was quite a good catch.

Went to Lot1 for a while after the movie as we had nowhere left to go. Slacked for a while at smoking area and left for home. :)

Great day today. Many loves part-time!

This was what she drew on my book.

It says:
If love is pain,
then you should let go and save yourself.
But bear in mind that,
if love is true,
pain is never a reason to let go.

Which I agree to.

Thanks, part-time!

Thursday

INNOCENT AMY'S BIRTHDAY!

Got to post this late as I was preoccupied yesterday.

I know, this isn't a pleasant surprise, but its a good start after all. :)

Happy birthday Amy, yet again. :D

2009-04-22T20:27:00.002+08:00

Met Benson early this morning and trained to Clementi MRT station before leaving for the bus stop to "bus" to the *College. :)

Basketball during the break, and we look as if we were struck down with heat stroke after an hour's game.

OFA after that, that teacher is seriously a waste of time.

Full stop.

Tired, turning in very very soon.

~Tag Replies
Momo: Shut up Joey yao da bian. :)
Panda: Fret not, your turn will come soon. xD
Amy: You talk a lot hor Chow Cb? Lols. ;)

2009-04-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

Went to the Sub Courts early today. The hearing is adjourned again to next Monday. The results would most probably be out next Monday already. :) Excited about it.

Done with the court and went to lunch with Dad and Mom at People's Park Complex. Had Yong Tau Foo for lunch and left for school. :)

Super exhausted and end up falling asleep in class. Super sorry to Aunt Jo about it. I guess I disappointed her too.

Skept Sunny Chow's lesson again with the whole class. xD Went to tea with Lion, Jj, L, Innocent, Momo and Shorty. This time, Shad and Lion's friend joined us too. :) Great hang out again.

Left for home after that.

DotA with L and JJ after that. :)

Tatas!

Oh yeahs! My money clip broke, for god knows why. Going to repair it at Gucci soon.

Ughhs! Damn it!

2009-04-20T07:22:00.002+08:00

Got a sleepless night today. Tossed about in bed and couldn't get to sleep! Poor me is going to get a hell of a day today. *Sigh~*

Buahahaha! Who cares, off to fill my stomach with prata with brother first. xD Had a stick or two, before heading home to rot till my time's up.

Oh yes, that very moment of truth is coming sooo blooodehhh soon. Hearing is 10AM at the Subordinate Courts. Should be going to school after that should things turn out well-hopefully? :D

I so miss the fun with my classmates last friday, hope to see it coming again hella soon. ;)

Laters~
Tata.

2009-04-19T19:57:00.006+08:00

Father woke up me today for Bak Kut Teh, but I was too tired to get up and continue to lay in bed since I slept at 5++AM yesterday. :D Woke up at 4++PM if I remember correctly.

Surfed the net all the way till now. Chatted with Momo, Retarded and earlier, L too. :D What a lifeless day today. Ugh.

Just had dinner. :) Nothing much today.

Tomorrow will be my hearing! Hope things will proceed smoothly. I'm so gonna miss school tomorrow. :)

There're so many many many, nicknames now. Hahahas, I'm known as even Heihei now because of "Dark". Gosh!

Been at Th-Wrongdoings.bs for 11 months. Lots of things occured for the past 11 months, and I took up blogging then, because of that detestable person. Now, I'm starting anew here.

~Tag Replies~
Anna: Thanks mei. :)
Yan Ling: Thanks ACP. :) I am, hope you are too. Same, take care too. :)
Momo: Sorry la Momo! Hahahas, you're linked already.
Eileen: Hahas, xD Alrights.
Retarded Massu: 'cuz you're retarded and you're Massu. ^^
Amy: Its Momo Joey's idea. Hahahas!

2009-04-19T04:53:00.006+08:00

As promised, went to town today! :D Jesse accompanied me there~ Went to window shop at Paragon and Takashimaya and finally got myself a new wallet! Woots! I'm exhilarated!

*Smiles*

Even the receipt looks great. xD

Linus couldn't go for a smoke break as his manager is there and don't know about retarded Massu's whereabouts. Met Rachel and company there coincidentally, they don't know me, needless to say spot me. Then, saw Qin Zhe and Peng Guang outside the MRT station. Chit-chatted, had a stick before leaving for Bukit Panjang Plaza.

Went to the outlet where brother was working to get a screen protector for my other precious, N5800. Waited for him to knock off, then went off to Keat Hong Market for supper with Ling and Xia too.

Returned home shortly after that. :) Fruitful day, been long since I went to town.

Will be going to catch a movie with Clairis next friday, will be looking forward to that, had been long since I ever caught up with that little wretch. Teehees. xD

Now, I'll let my new baby be in the limelights!

*out of the box*
*bird's eye view*
*uses a money clip*

Beautiful ey? xD I'm so lovin' it! Shopping another day. ;)

2009-04-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

School was uber great lately, I swear it!

Had lots of fun with classmates and all of them are pretty nice and friendly. Got to know people like Benson who is super friendly and nice.

I'll keep this post short for a start. ^^

Little add-on, the hearing will be on this coming Monday. :D

Should be town-ing tomorrow to get my new wallet! ;)

2009-03-18T18:56:00.004+08:00

Went to meet Yang at Yew Tee Community Centre earlier to have basketball games and pool games at Windermere.

Did some catching up.

They'd be meeting me early tomorrow morning to accompany me to the Subordinate Courts, Ling too, and Dalton and Tham.

:)

Hope things goes well tomorrow~

Most probably won't be seeing Xia. :O Forget it~

Thanks to many many many people out there who cares and wished me luck especially Yang, Ling, Gwen, ACP, Part-time, Hui Shan, Jovell, Pei Fen, Feng and many more.

:) With loves.

2009-03-16T21:19:00.003+08:00

I'll be going to court on the 19th March for my pending case of the unlawful possession of offensive weapon, Chapter 6(1).

Wish me luck. :)

Just returned from Jurong HQ.

Adds:
Thanks to all the well-wishing from many of my friends.

Yang and Ling would be going with me. :) Thanks!

Its been long since I didn't feel hollow inside.
I'm so glad I have bosom friends around me. Touched too.

2009-03-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

Let's start with yesterday.

Went out when its pouring to Causeway Point to catch a movie-He's Just Not That Into You!
Watched it with Pei Fen. Saw Chantel and co. in the same theatre too.

I was ushed home by Mother because I received notice that I'm to return to Jurong HQ tomorrow.
However, went to have dinner at 302, and had a little walk before heading home~

And today!

Visited Jurong HQ, didn't get to meet my IO and I left to meet Yang for a while at the interchange.

He went home shortly and I left for Teck Whye to meet up with Rayhan!
Caught up with him and wanted to know how he was doing lately and how's he in the home.
He's finally out man! :D

Received a call from mother after that, saying that my case from before brought onto court, and I'd be charged.

Drats it. What a turn down.

Father got a lawyer anyways, hope things would turn out well. (:

Tag Replies
Clairis: You're more dumb than anybody else in the world! Wretch!
Ting: Hahas hey thanks! Its alrights.
Joan: Hi there!
Jovell: Lols, ouch!
Pei Fen: I'll link you up soon. (:

2009-03-07T19:33:00.002+08:00

Back~

Was out with my brother, Shao Bao, Nicholas, Rena, Bao Ting and Karen at 145. Shao Bao bike me there and my brother cabbed down.

Chit-chatted, and had sticks, until in the morning before we each left for home.

Boring man!

Life's been horrid nowadays for me.

2009-02-27T21:36:00.005+08:00

Went out today~

Cooped myself up at home the last 2 days DotA-ing.

Met up with Yang at Lot1 for lunch and a "hunting" trip. No returns. :(

Ahh yes there is! Yang had one, a comment which goes
"不好看，我不要!"

I guess only we both know what I'm talkin' about. Aww wells.

Went to 214 to play basketball after that. Saw Wei Ting and her puppy~ But Bibi is cuter definitely. xD

Went home after that~ Waiting for Dad to bring home supper!

Just realised Ling've got so many of my pictures in her laptop, got to get them back from her someday~

Kinda bored so I did this! :DD

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Got this quiz from Ling's blog at some weird website.
Damned, do you consider this a compliment? But its kinda true I guess.

Here's another one->

Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.

And another one,

Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

This sounds a little bit better.

Aww wells, shall leave it here. Tatas~

2009-02-25T18:13:00.002+08:00

Gosh, I'm overwhelmed by boredom!

I'm currently rotting at home, not knowing what else I can do.
Somebody save me from this nerve-wrecking boredom, throw me something to do!

Nevermind, shall go fill my stomach for a while~

This boredom is killing me!

2009-02-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Ling's birthday the day before yesterday, and yesterday!

Uber fun! And, touching scene too! :)

Yang and I met Ling at approximately 7.30PM. Cabbed down to Halo Bar to catch up with Randy, Clement, He Xiang and Jeremie. Pool, drank and sang.

Min Rui and co. came after that with a birthday balloon and a cake. Surprise surprise surprise for Ling. All of us sang for her a birthday song and she was touched to tears.

Xia and Xuan came too, afterwards.

Vanessa joined us too. :)

Eventful day, for all of us, and especially beloved Ling.

Wei Xi, Dan Hui, Xia and I went for the second celebration at Dan Hui's place the next day too.
Ordered pan pizzas from Pizza Hut and had mahjong games.

Fun...

2009-02-20T21:16:00.003+08:00

Ahhs. Tiring day~

Went to Dunearn today to meet Yang and all. Slacked and stuffs till Vanessa was dismissed from her CCA. Yang then sent her to the interchange at Bukit Batok before we headed to 214!

Played basketball with Randy, Jeremie, and Ling and Co. . Home after that.

Played alot of basketball recently. Enjoyable~ Been long since I enjoyed my life this way. :)

Should be Viwawa-ing soon with Ling.

These few days, my life is "happening"!

Good I guess, too?

Perhaps Ling is right, I was too naive. I don't understand the implications.

Tag Replies
Replying to this "happening" Fucker first :) :
First of all, I didn't say I was "big" or in your context, mature. Maturity isn't measured by age, but, the way you think.
Second, this is my blog, I rant as and when I please despite my age, and your whinings.
Third, smart or not, can't be judged by where I go. You end up nowhere with a good brain without effort as well. So, if you're gonna waste your time bull shit-ing here, might as well do some revision and not end up like me?
Fourth, you're definitely in no position to judge me if you're Yvonne's friend. In addition, Yvonne herself has even less authority to judge me.
Last, I had a hard time trying to comprehend your "English", so.. revise. Thanks.
This shall be my last reply to you Fucker, so you can continue whining as like I said, I don't play into a spammer's game.

Jovell: Lols. Yeah! You got that right!
Xu Hao: Of course I remember you.
Jerlinda: No problem.
Daphne: You'd be relinked soon.
Olivia: Hahas! Meet up someday then when I'm free.
Ling: No need to bother that Fucker. Hahas. Thanks by the way!
TAN JUN KAI: Asssssshole!
Ahgirl: Thanks.
Michelle: Hey there. :D

2009-02-16T08:01:00.004+08:00

Just reached home! Ling had been complaining that I hadn't update for a very very long time. Aww wells, didn't know what to write about. Now, I shall write a big chunk! xD

Just got home from Choa Chu Kang! Shall be going out to meet the jobless Xuan and school boy Yang soon too.

Just sent Xia home-again. Ling's house is like my second home now. :D Had been slacking at her house every night recently, with Xia and Jeremie, and sometimes Rendy.

Cards, sticks, chit-chat and all.

This year's Valentine's day is a lonesome one. Gahhs. But Xia came to accompany me for a few hours at the playground. How comforting, although its a belated Valentine's since its past midnight. Had supper too, then sent her home.

And one of the most eventful day so far, was Dan Hui's birthday! Had been long since I celebrated her birthday. Wei Xi, Ling, and Xia was present too. Dan Hui's boyfriend came later on. Had card games at her house and Chivas! Although it loses out compared to Martell, but I again, drank too much.

But fortunately, I didn't puke! Or I'd leave a mess for the birthday girl to clear up. ;) They all left for home one by one, with me tipsy on the table. I skipped the cake too. Dan Hui and her boyfriend went to lovey-dovey at the living while Xia kept me company at the dining table in the kitchen.

Laid there for an hour and a half before she walk me to flag a cab and sent me home, till my doorstep. *Thanks

Yang just called, he reached my place already, but let him wait a little while doesn't hurt yeah? ;)

Alrights nevermind. Shall go off now.

2009-02-06T05:06:00.003+08:00

Initially, I thought the day would be a spoilt one.

I received a text from a I-don't-know-how-to-describe person(Yvonne Chua) asking for a patch up and then the following text which says she's joking. Yeah, crack me up with that joke will ya? Seems as if somebody hasn't grown up and would be staying a kid for good. Maybe the word "slut" would suit you perfectly? I don't know. A slight add-on, I burnt and deleted every single thing that reminds me of you.

Got a morning call from Leon then on. That hongster. LOLS. Nevermind. The rest of the day is perfectly fine. Went to meet Yang and Van and I kinda spoilt their day out of ignorance. Forgive me, my bad.

I'll summarise the rest of the day.

I then, went to Jurong Point, intended to meet up with Hui Shan, I suppose? But didn't. Went to Starbucks and they're not hiring-unfortunately. Headed back immediately and went to Yang's house for a while.

Chit-chatted and went downstairs to meet Ling. Then to her house to drink and watch Hot Shot, yet, again.

Xia came later in the evening.

They all drank but everybody is perfectly fine today, thankfully.

Xia's tired and I walked her back, as usual. You startle me today, somehow.

Now now... What beats ending a day with your lovely bed? :DD

Perhaps, you're my resolve.

2009-02-05T03:51:00.002+08:00

Today is a bad bad day.

First I got rejected to return to Swiss Cottage. Second, my father thought I abused drugs. How wonderful. Drats. Just because of my sore eyes, I'm a suspect for drug abuse. If my father's made a police officer, so many innocent lads are going to be called back to the CNB everyday. Pain in the ass~!

Woke up at 3++PM. Bathed and prepare to go to Swiss. Met up with Yang and Van before that before spending 2 hours in the school with practically no returns. Yang and Van waited patiently outside the school for me. I'm grateful and sorry.

What a futile wait. Dine at 302 before heading home. Had a bad bad day.

Other than that, there're still others I prefer to keep undivulged.

Everything sums up to make today uber bad! Everything don't seem to be working out and my mind is in a fuss now. Drats! Drats! Drats!

2009-02-02T03:40:00.004+08:00

Been long since I wrote!

Been to Henderson Waves recently with Ling and Min Rui. Clement Phang, He Xiang, Jeremie and Javier(if I spelt it wrongly...) was there too.

Its beautiful, but I was very tired that day, so, wasn't really in the mood to enjoy the scenery and breeze there. There're pictures actually, but lazy me didn't bother to do them up.

Been out of sleep lately. Uber tired recently. Hang out till the wee hours almost everyday with Ling, Xuan and Xia. But not these few days as they've been busy with their stuffs most of the time and Xuan has got DIAHHROEA(if I spelt it right)!!! That's the most uber cool thing to write about. :DDD

My days are passing by slowly, my days are boring. My time spent slacking most of the time. How meaningless.

By the way, my JAE posting stuffs wasn't successful. Great. Should be retaking my O's at Swiss Cottage again, or otherwise, moving on to the ITE. I'll see how it goes. Time's running out for me too.

I'ma confused child! Many things are flashing past my mind now.

You're still a hindrance to my life, not because I still hold a torch for you definitely. I hate your existence. Your selfishness and stubborness brings no end. You suck to the core. You can never comprehend love, for its something you can never grasp-never.

Tag Replies
Jerlinda: You'd be relinked soon!
Shi Man: Laughs. Okays.
Clairis: You're a pain in the ass. Lols.
Jovell: Lols sorry. I'd be soon!

-End-

2009-01-28T17:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday
Superb day~!

Slept till 4++AM. Met up with Xia and Xuan at 302 for dinner and then, met up with Ling at 10++PM. Proceeded to Marina Square via cab for KBox!

K all the way till 3AM before leaving for Choa Chu Kang again via cab. Slacked at Ling's house. Unpleasant things occured after that. Things will blow over soon-hopefully. :) Its CNY.

Breakfast with Xuan at Teck Whye before heading home by bus.

That's all~~

Post for today will be updated tomorrow! :)

2009-01-27T02:42:00.003+08:00

Happy CNY to everyone!! :DD

The CNY mood simply isn't there for me. But anyways anyways. Hehes. This is CNY for me:

Woke up late today as I came home late the previous night. Was out till 4AM slacking with Xuan and Brother. :D Visited Grandma's place at about 2++PM, visited Aunt's place after that.

My red packet's pathetic for all the years, and in addition, there's concession this year and the fucked up economy this year, makes my $$ collection even worse. :(

Luck was bad for me too. Lose every hand when I gamble, be it, 13 cards or Mahjong. How irritating la. Hahas.

Shan said that she's passed her luck to me and if I were to win, I'm suppose to treat her to lunch, but seems that I ain't doing well at all and I should get a treat from her. Hahas. :P

Now at Xuan's Aunt's place. They're all gambling and I'm dead bored now. Xia is too worn out to accompany me too. Arghhs! I'm dying of boredom! Maybe going to meet her later for supper. I'm hungry too. Ahhs. That's all for now. :DD

Tatas.

Again, Happy CNY to everyone! (:

Tag Replies
Enn: Mei! Happy CNY! You asshole never pick up my call!

2009-01-25T19:19:00.002+08:00

Today
Super short day.
I bombed Hong Ming for 3 hours before meeting him. :DD Shao Bao, Jeffery and the others are all there. Left with Hong Ming, Shao Bao and Yi Jun shortly.

Got strangled by Char Shao Bao thanks to Gavin Lee. Home shortly after they left.

May be meeting them up in the night again. Hopefully can go chiooooong. :DD

Yesterday
Beeeeeeeen damn damn long since I met up with Celeste! That stupid girl. Hahas. Slacked with Xuan, Hong Ming and Shao Bao till the evenings. They went for drinks at some rundown pub called Jest'D Place.

Went over to Limbang for a while for DotA with Celeste, Fong, Hao Jie, Louis, Rayhan and Xiao Gou. Been long since I meet them up. They left for Grace's place for K, then Celeste, Hao Jie and I left for 302 to wait for Hong Ming and Co..

Ate, had drinks and chit-chatted when they arrived. Went to 208's playground to chit-chat after that and left for home via cabb~!

2009-01-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday

Woke up at 8++AM, bathe, change and proceed to Dunearn Secondary School, again. Went to 7-eleven to buy Dars' milk chocolate before that. Met up with Yang and Gerald for a short while to pass them the chocolate before going to buy cigarettes at 323. Sians. Then returned to 427 and waited for Yang for 2++ hours.

Xuan cabbed down to meet us. Leon came to meet me too. We then proceeded to 323 to have lunch and Yang drove off with Van. Xuan and I returned to Lot1 and slack.

Met up with Yang after a long period of time for a while and we proceeded to Teck Whye Market to eat Bak Kut Teh with Xuan's family. Visited Lum's place to drink Martell again as I wasn't feeling very good, and I was drunk, vomitted 3 times.

Xia and Ling came too after that. Rest for an hour plus before walking home.

Today

Nothing much today. Don't feel like talking about it. Basically slacked with Xuan, Yang and my elder brother.

2009-01-20T22:25:00.003+08:00

This is for today.

I was awoken by Mother at 9++AM for nothing. Super pissed and yeah, whatever. Laid on my bed till 11 plus and went to bathe and get dressed. Then, went to Yew Tee's Visionlink to collect my contact lenses' receipt as I left it there yesterday.

Proceeded to Gombak's 4 head to look for Yang and etc. Had to talk with Wen Jie for a while too. Stayed over there all the way till 6 plus before heading home. Met Gerald on the way.

Uber general post as I'm tired. Going to bed. Good nights.

*surprise surprise* You'll see. :DD

2009-01-20T11:08:00.002+08:00

Hmmmms. I'm starting to think that this skin looks girly. Like, duh right? But who cares, I'm lazy to change it. == Who cares anyways?

Apparently, I'm rotting like nobody's business now! I'm super bored and that clown, Xuan is still sleeping I reckon. He says to go play basketball at CC today, but who knows? He may be bombing again. He's a bombster by blood, so is Yang.

I'm really craaaaapping. Shall add the events of today at the end of the dayyyy.

2009-01-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, was out with Xuan whole day. Met up with Yang only later. Ling and Wei Xi dropped by on us too for a while. Xia was doing her hair today. Was meeting up today actually but didn't as I was too tired.

Was at Lot1 and saw many people. Then proceeded to Limbang for LAN with Malcolm, Johnathan, Gabriel, Xiao Bee and Qing Shun. Went to Yew Tee with Xuan after that and I went home shortly.

That's all~!

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I'm happeh toddehhh.

2009-01-18T23:53:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was alright. Slacked with Amoz, Dexter and Eileen as Xuan and Co. was at Cine. Went to Batok 5 Head as they were going there to settle some issues. I went there to spectate as I've got nothing to do and hopefully, Eileen could hire me at her handphone shop. :DD They're nice peoples.

Amoz took us for a spin using some Kenneth's car. Dropped by at Gombak's coffee shop to have a drink and had sticks. He then drove me back to Choa Chu Kang, 302 coffee shop as I saw Xuan, Hong Ming, Char Shao Bao, Qing Shun and Jun Zhang there. Sat with them, chit-chatted, had sticks and all.

They all left shortly and Xuan and I walked Qing Shun to hail a cab. Lum and John joined us but John left shortly. Headed to Xuan's house to fetch a bottle of Martell and headed towards The Warren to drink. A little tipsy but it was okay as we left for Teck Whye for breakfast and stuffs. Went home after that. :DD

And as for today, Xuan called me to accompany him at Lot1. So, I went. Slacked and stuffs and was waiting for Yang. Met up and chit-chatted and stuffs. Xia and Ling came down too. But I left shortly to accompany my father and uncle for dinner at approximately 10PM? Had a drink too. (: Thanks Xia, for buying that Tobleron for me. :DDDD

Things are going well-hopefully. I'm desperate for $$$$!

Tag Replies
Jojo: Yeahs yeahs! I'm posting! :DD
ACP: Hahas sure. Long time no see you le.
Jovell: :P I'll link you up soon alrights? A little lazy. Hahas.

2009-01-17T19:32:00.001+08:00

Great to see my goooood friends' moods get better day by day.
Great things had been happening~

Today is a boring day.
Rot at home the entire day.
Had nowhere to go, and everyone's got their own company.
Aww wells.

2009-01-17T02:49:00.003+08:00

Today was, goooood?
Hahas, thats how I see it, I guess. :)
A long day indeed...

Woke up, bathed and got prepared to leave for Dunearn Secondary School first thing in the morning. Met up with Ding Yang and Dalton at Dunearn's bus stop. Had some sticks and we ate Otah~ Slacked a little, received a warm welcome from Kenrick at the gate, and went into the school compound.

Had to wait uber long for that Botak Wong! Worst of all, he wasn't in school at all. Ransacked the school for big shots but they're all MIA. :S We lunch-ed at the school's canteen. As my contacts are dry, my vision is uber blur, and I mean, uber blur, I still gazed about however. I saw a girl a distance away with a Pink bagpack. I was telling Dalton, "I get a shock whenever I see a girl with a Pink bagpack around as I was afraid it might be Shan." As I've said, I can't really recognise her with that blurry vision. He looked back and gave me a shock as I was right on. *I should have bought 4D or TOTO today! She didn't really spot me though, but I was relieved as I almost got a heart attack.

Finished lunch-ing and Van came to see Yang. She also said Shan'd be coming anytime soon too. Uber intense! Was planning to pay the washroom a visit but it was halted by her arrival. Besides smiling in red to myself, I can't find myself doing anything else. She said hello and I returned the greeting and she left for her choir practise. I fly after that. :D:D *grins

Shall skip everything else. Yang sent Van home after that and, their relationship made progress again. :P Went to meet Xuan and Hong Ming. Slacked, had dinner and all. Shao Bao came after that. Saw Fong and the others too. Home-d after that since Xuan and the guys had nowhere to go. No Martell! Sadded.

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There'll be more opportunities to come. (: Though, honestly, I'm not confident myself. *Gahhs~

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Tag Replies
Ling: The PSP is there to shut you up, not entertain you. :DDD
Jovell: Hahahas! It wasn't suppose to mean anything. :) Thanks anyways.

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Almost finished with this blog skin thing. Really lazy, but I got it tweaked out somehow. :DD

2009-01-15T13:21:00.004+08:00

Ohhhhh my god!
Vanessa is uber sweet, so is Yang. What a lovey dovey couple.
*Jealousy!!!

Man!! Hahahas. Yang's finally got a girlfriend! Shoud I be saying this here? xP

Neverminds~~ I'll find a girlfriend too! :DD Rights?

Rotting at home now~ Submitting the JAE stuffs soon later.
;) Shan yeah Shan yeah? :D:D:D Hopefully soon. Gosh, I'm so excited.

Adds#1: I'm uber happy right now!!

Adds#2: "See if you have the determination or not." I'll remember that.

There'd be more adds throughout the day! Hehehes!
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2009-01-14T19:35:00.004+08:00

Today

Today was actually any ordinary day for me.
Until, you appeared again and talked to me.

My heart really ached again. I thought I'd have gotten over it. I quietly waited all this while. You told me you've put our love to the finishing line and we'll never be together again. I suffered in solitude. I hate this loneliness you put me in. Now that I've gotten the energy the drive myself out of this darkness, you came back and put me down again.

You sent me this:
FUCK LAH I HAVE ENOUGH LET ME TELL YOU , I GET JEALOUS WHEN I SEE THOSE THINGS , I ALRDY KNOW WHAT YOU SAY TO DAPHNE AND STUFF , FINE SINCE YOU HATE ME SO MUCH , LET IT BE . WHATEVER YOU TOLD ME LAST TIME I WILL SURELY TREAT THAT YOU'RE LYING TO ME , WHATEVER YOU LOVE ME AND SO ARE ALSO LIE . YOU ARE LIAR THATS ALL

You told me you're jealous? You've had enough of me? I hate you so much? I lied to you? Are you very sure about all these? You've got a boyfriend who you claimed to love so much now. Why are you bothered by what I do and what I'm doing? You come to brag and boast and even, ask me what should you buy for your new boyfriend as an anniversary gift. Gosh, I have to bear with all that crap alright! All that without uttering a word! What is this you're putting me through? Are you sure you have the rights to complain about me, letting you have green eyes? You doubt me when I said I've already gotten over our past, maybe you're right, I'm lying to myself. But so what? It isn't relevant anymore. I lied? You want to know who lied? You said you'd never leave me, and what did you do? What did I lie to you about? Do I not love you? If you think I lied to you, you're not only blind, you're unfeeling. You told me you're selfish, you wanted to last with him and you don't wish to let me go. This is impossible. I think you know it better than I do. You know me, its impossible. Yes, I hate you and I loved you too. What did you, Yvonne Chua tell Shu Jing? You told her we broke and I've got another girlfriend outside? Clairis? Don't find an excuse for your folly. We were indeed texting but that doesn't mean anything. Don't make me spill to the world what you've done.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Hahas, these are pics of yesterday and those of the day before.
Was with Ling, Xia, Xi, and Lum. Yang was super depressed.
Slacked and stuffs. Xia and Xi went home earlier while me and Lum went to Yang's place to help him with his 3 page long essay.

Damn Dunearn-seriously.

Shall be the end, I'm moodless to continue.

2009-01-13T19:26:00.003+08:00

Was supposed to go to the movies with Yang, Van and maybe Hui Shan.
But it was cancelled and postponed because Yang had some troubles.

Sighs.
I'm uber bored at home now. Can some kind soul please entertain me?
I'm rotting!

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Waiting~

2009-01-13T15:38:00.003+08:00

Sunday, January 11, 2009
Met Xia at Lot1 with Yang and Shu Qi(Xia's friend).
Slacked for a while and we all headed to 214.

Ling and Xuan came to meet us, and Xia came eventually.
Yang returned home early as he has to book in or his officer is going to send him to DB again. xD
Out to accompany Xia since many things happened to her and she can't really handle it alone. All the best to you. (:

That night was fun! Uber fun! Xuan ran several blocks just to escape from Ling's camera. While they were at it playing cat and mouse, Xia and I were taking video of the entire process. Unfortunately, they both came at us after that and we were forced to delete it. Or I promise, it'll be the funniest Escape-From-Camera video you'd ever seen taken live. ;)

We all left for home invidually at 3++AM. Walked Xia home since its dark and its convenient for me to get home too. Shan't continue about this. ^^

Monday, January 12, 2009
Look at the retarded Yang with BeeBee in his arms. Laughs~

Okay, he's simply retarded acting sexy with AhBee and AhBee is uber cute, I swear!Headed over to Ling's house. Yang wasn't feeling good about his results. Shan't talk more about it.

I got 25 points for my O's Levels! :D I know I shouldn't be happy with these results as it totally sucked. But I'm comforted and glad that I got this grade without studying. The teachers said so too and I can still move on to a Polytechnic. A little regretful to have produced this kinda result since I was capable of doing so much better. Ohh wells, no point doing that now. (:

Played basketball for a little while at 214 after that. Waited for Xia to come and Yang and I went home.

Tv and etc and went to bed. (:

Today

Basically, rotting at home. I've got no idea where to go and most probably not going anywhere.

Good nights everyone.

Tag Replies

Ling: I'm undead. Hahas. Shall ask you out sometime later then.
Jovell: Hahas, not true? You're keeping it alive! :P
Passerby: Not very ideal I suppose? But I'm alright with it. (: Thanks!

-The End-

2009-01-11T03:23:00.002+08:00

Town-ed today~
Darned worn out.
Saw Bitch, Cynthia, Chantel, Hua Yu and a couple of other people there too.
Xuan and Hong Ming was at Cine but I guess I'll pass them since they're going to Zouk.

Went to Rayhan's house after that.
Left shortly with John and Wilson.
Super missed Wilson, I finally saw him since he went in.
Rayhan's father gave us a ride home.
Sticks-ed with elder brother and went home.

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I guess things are going pretty well. Hehes. A good start marks a step nearer to success.

2009-01-08T22:41:00.005+08:00

Okay peoples! This place is almost dead, or in fact, very dead by now.
So, let me post something up before I go missing again, to let almost all of you know that you guys are complete morons.

Here is the dictionary meaning of the term " Shag " or " Shagged ". (:

shag 5 (shāg) Pronunciation Key
v. shagged, shag·ging, shags Chiefly British Vulgar Slang

v. tr.
To engage in sexual intercourse with.
v. intr.
To engage in sexual intercourse.

So now you've learnt it! Its a very wrong word to use.
Its okay! There're alot more morons out there besides yourself.
Now, can you kindly educate your friends? :DD

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I'm a changed man. I live for myself. Definitely, I'll still feel a thing or two, but don't be mistaken, I'm not obsessed with you at all, no no! I guess that'll be all for you.

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Results will be out on the 12th. Woots.
It'd be such a dreaded day for me. My bad~

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Doing this dumb skin halfway. Continue another day. ^^

2008-12-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

Was bored and got this done. xD

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Death
Disappointment
Looked down on
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2008-12-30T12:08:00.003+08:00

Sentosa yesterday~! Woots!
Kinda fun.
Underwater World, sight seeing and the Songs of the Sea before headng home.
Super tiring-again.
AX I'm coming. Soon yeah soon.
Going Chinatown later. Lols.
I'm more and more like an uncle.
Gahs. And, going to the damned HQ tomorrow.
Off to do my stuffs. :D

P/S: Blog still currently under construction because I'm uber lazy. Lost all links, kindly send me your links back to me via the tagboard which I will put up hopefully soon or through the comments. THANKS~
Labels: Ain't I stupid?

2008-12-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

Town-ed today with mother and her friend's family.
Walked everywhere-exhausted.
Went to 3 AX outlets, spotted my baby which is $139.
What a pain in the ass.
Oh yeah, and a Nike shirt and another which I forgot.
Whatever.
Tired, Bed, Bye.

2008-12-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

Been to the Zoo today!
My my, what a hectic day.
Super tiring~ Especially when I'm going with 2 monstrous kids.
I resemble a father walking my 2 children to the Zoo with my parents, their grandparents.
Gahhs. Unimaginable. Fun though. Catch up with lots of my childhood times.

Home, guess I won't be meeting Fong and the guys.
Should be turning in soon.
Will be going Orchard tomorrow to shop, shop and shop!
Hopefully, I could get my AX belt tomorrow since I can't afford the Gucci one for now.
And the super nice Gucci watch omfg and nevertheless, Gucci shades! :O

Those aside, shall get a Billabong cap and Everlast sweater soon!
Super nice stuffs, but expensive. What a turn down.
Nevertheless, I'll get them! Bwahahahas!

Tatas~

2008-12-26T21:06:00.005+08:00

Ohhh boy. I feel that I'm super detestable nowadays. ==
Made Louis and Wen Xuan angry, lols.
Gahhs~ Whatever. I'm not bothered by it now.

1 Person I admire and respect, Celeste Wang.
You reminded me of something, and that's trust.
You can blindly pursue what may be, nothing but a dream so wholeheartedly.
My, my, you're the most foolish person I've ever seen in this world.
Very stupid, but certainly admirable I must say.

You can believe him after he's dumped you and betrayed you for months and so many times.
You've got my admirations. I'm dumbfounded.
Though you can't see this post, thanks. You reminded me of something I forgotten, and that's trust.

Trust.
I'm a second fool like you.

So, I trust You - still. When I thought, maybe there's still a shimmer of hope that this mess could be cleared up, I was engulfed in darkness.

Ahh yes, I should be getting my just desserts soon.

P.S. This year's Christmas is garbage! And, I did something regrettable. Tsks~

2008-12-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

I think I'm sounding like a piece of pathetic shit again.
You've got no idea how much I wanted you back and I've been waiting all these while.
Now that we're really gone, my heart aches again, suddenly, after so long.
All was for naught, unsought for.

2008-11-23T13:31:00.003+08:00

Worked yesterday, super tired.

Okays, I guess I'll put an end to it.
Full stop. You'll be with that guy, and I lead my own life.
Its pointless. You like him.

Yesterday, will most probably be our last meet-up.
We're goners.

2008-11-22T03:19:00.003+08:00

Confused child I am.
Lot1 today.
Meet Tham.
Then met Amos, Dexter and co coincidentally.
Sat down, slacked, smoke, and drink.

Celeste msg me, ask us go Lim Bang play LAN and off we go.
Met up with Rayhan, Yang Fong, Hao Jie, Johnathan, Celeste, Jia Ling and Grace.
Hong Ming, Wee Kian, Jacky was there too.
Slacked, smoke and whatever then went home.

Thanks Johnathan, Tham, Fong and Celeste send me home.
Have to trouble you guys at the canal.
Sent them off half way through the canal and I headed home alone.

You're at the back of my mind every moment.
I can't forget you no matter how hard I try.
You hurt me the most of all the girlfriends I ever had.
There're things I say that I don't mean at all. I only want to see how you react and how much I mean to you. All hopes isn't lost, I only wanted you to try and prove me wrong. I wonder if you'd ever realise, but, we shared a past, nobody can ever take away. I'll always love you, and never forget you. I wished you'd bring me back to our past but it may not be possible anymore. Every night, you're the only thing that comes to my mind.

2008-11-20T20:34:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies
Lovel: Hahas same~
Adelind: I will. Relink soon.
Wan Ying: Okays.
Olivia: Hahas okays MeiMei. Thanks alot.
Yen Cheng: Hellos.
Jeslyn: Yoh!
Nurmatha: Lols that's a joke.
Si Ginah: I will Si Ginah. Hahas. Thanks, still remember tao ey sia!
Rebecca: Hahas yeahs. Okays~ Thanks!
Siew Hwan: Okays. :D
Jolene: I will Da Sao. LOL?!
Ah Lum: Thanks bro I will.

Thanks everyone for the supports and sorry for the late replies as I wasn't in the mood to do this. Relinks will be done soon. I'll be fine given time. For now, let me be. (:

2008-11-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

Met up with Rayhan, Yang Fong, Xiao Gou, Grace, Celeste and Grace in the morning at 10++AM.
Yeaps, there's 2 Grace. ==
They went 145 to eat and after that, to Timah for LAN.
DotA for 2 freaking hours.
Went to Lot1 a while after that and went home.

Why are you so stupid?!
Why do you think I go to Lot1 alone for? Can't you fucking come instead? You expect me to go and find you? YOU'RE DAMN STUPID! Nevermind, you've got Daphne there anyways.

Do you think we've got time next year? Will you have the time to accompany me? I doubt it. Treasure whatever you have before its gone. Don't ever regret when its too late.

2008-11-19T08:23:00.003+08:00

Timah yesterday. This is the photo of retarded Yang Fong with Jolene. His part time girlfriend. LOL?
He's a sad man too, Bunny left him on that same faithful day as me. Our situation is similar.

It was crowded today. ALOT ALOT of people came to celebrate Xiao Gou birthday. Some was not caught in the picture as the scope was too small.

After that, went to 145 to dine and bought beers!

LAN, then pool.

Was there ten? Or more bottles? Drank like crazy. Hoping to forget every single thing. But all that doesn't seem to work. Can't get drunk as well. I wanted to just shut my eyes and sleep my way till dawn. But I can't. I was sober till dawn, thinking of everything. Thanks bros, for trying to cheer me up the whole night and all you guys' supports. BFL! Oh yah, there was Martel too, almost everyone was tipsy, but I guess I'm not. And stupid Yang Fong don't let me drink after that. Gahhs.

I miss you so much, so so so much! Okays?! Very much!

There're so many tx guys whom I saw, ended up with broken hearts.

Tell me if guys should be branded as bad from today onwards.

Because, it doesn't seem this way at all from all my experiences from my social circle.

Super thank you to Fong, Han, Lum, Jeremie, Johnathan, Xiao Gou, Malcom, Grace, Celeste and those whom I left out for yesterday night. I needed all of you guys' company.

And Celeste and Yang Fong for their endless supply of food, cigarettes, drinks! :D

You left me hurt so bad.

2008-11-18T15:45:00.007+08:00

I read through every single thing, your every post, your every message.
I read through them 5-8 times everyday.
I tell myself they're all over, they're just a dream I woke up from.
But there's more to it than just this, in this 6 months long journey.
I miss you horribly.
I love you very much.
You've got completely no idea what I'm feeling at all.
Go, just go.
I've got no intention of leashing you here to me, we've broken off.
I've already let you free to do whatever you want.
Don't need to be bothered by my feelings and thoughts.
Bye, be happy.

If its a dream, I'd rather not wake up.
Damn, its coming again.

Adds:
Today is Xiao Gou birthday!
Going Timah now to meet them for LAN.
Later going 145 to drink.
Tatas~
Its shattering. its so painful.

2008-11-18T01:16:00.003+08:00

"Tomorrow la" and "Saturday loh" sounds familiar to you?
We don't meet at all during weekdays previously.
Now do you know why I'm so fed up with it? Because, there could be no more tomorrow, no more saturdays.
At least I could meet you once a week previously when I missed you, now, none.
There is no tomorrow to speak off.

You can say you love me a hundred times, a thousand times, but so what?
You're with another guy now. How many people can you love at a time?
You said you don't love him, but you're holding his hand, you're in his arms, whatever.
Then what do you want with me? I can't take this anymore.
Stop your sluttish behaviours.
Stop bruising me further.
I'm human.
While I can give you time, you're out there with another guy.
What do you want with me?!?!
TELL ME!
I FUCKING HATE YOU!

我曾经以为爱上你不会错
你如今变的让我没有把握
曾经的承诺对与错
回过头又算是什么
这逝去的爱如何能复活

你过的生活似乎很快乐
我虽然难过爱让我懦弱
付出的太多无法解脱
这心痛你能明白吗
我应该如何才不会是这结果

我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好孤独
爱的没有退路我好无助
抹不去痛楚忍不住的哭
这是你给我的礼物

我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好糊涂
爱的不能醒悟你好残酷
我看着来路你并不在乎
也许吧我无所谓一个人去漫步

也许吧我无所谓我看着来路却不在乎

This song is: 爱的好辛苦

2008-11-17T03:22:00.005+08:00

One of the pictures I loved the most is this.
But, they're all in the past now. Things isn't the same anymore.
Our relationship ended, from here on out.

I actually wanted to tell you, but I didn't, and I kept these in my heart.
Everyone who hangs out with me, should know, I'm not a person who has a lot of money, so, I feel very bad, as a boyfriend.
I can't give you the things you want, but other guys could.
So, after my Os, I told myself, I'm going to work, and be a good hubby to you, I can buy you whatever you want, bring you out shopping, movies, whatever. I told myself, I should forgive you for whatever mistakes you commited, and treat you like my only. I will disicpline myself, and turn away from the vices. But these are all nothing but fantacies now.

You're gone.

But, I remember you'd always say I could understand your pains and situations sometimes but you completely can't.
Now, I realised, you're wrong.
In fact, I don't know you at all, its you, who knows how to handle me best.
Think about it, am I right?

Anyway, are those important anymore?
You're gone right?

This photo stayed with me for months, its my phone's wallpaper, suddenly, I've got no idea how to remove it for, this may be the last momento for me.

I still feel your existence. I know you're still there. But, your company, the males, really shroud my vision. Tell me how do I wait?
Although I will, but this is unbearable.
死。
I thought it wouldn't hurt, but its aching horibly now. My heart is bleeding.

2008-11-15T13:30:00.003+08:00

I used to give up everything for that little bit of you.
But now that you're gone, I didn't just lose you, I lost everything.
Will probably be rotting at home, thinking about everything.
Have fun outside at West Mall.

2008-11-14T22:36:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was graduation night.
A day which I feel is significant and prominent in everyone's lives at the age of 16/17.
That is the only day I feel I'm part of the school.
That night was great.
Everyone was in their best, had great food and drinks, sit down and chat, take photoes, everything.
Will post up some of mine later. (: But I don't think I look good though. :X

Went to plenty of places after graduation dinner too.
First, we went to Clarke Quay.
Wanted to look for JL's erhems, and since Damen and the guys were there.
Saw Jack coincidentally and chit-chatted for a while.
It was crowded at Clarke Quay since it there was an event, Rayhan and co. was there too.
However, Rayhan was bounced out after that. ==

After that, we went to Marina Square.
Cabb-ed there, then went to KBox.
Pool there with classmates and they sang K.
A great night, until we found out that we're included in the bills.
We lacked ninety bucks but it was discounted to $12.80 in the end and the waiter there paid for us.
A lucky day indeed.

After KBox-ing, AhJon's father came and hired a taxi for us to go to his house.
Home shortly after that.
Super tiring day.

Slept 12 hours, just woke up at 9++ PM.

I wanted to tell you all these, but since you gave me no chance to talk at all, and you don't care about what I wanted to share with you at all, I'll write them here for everyone else to know, hear, listen.
Lots happened yesterday too.
Here's the bad stuffs.

I'm sick now. I've fallen ill.
Sickly these few days, supposedly because my super heaty diet recently and I didn't drink much water.

I was summoned by HSA in the afternoon.
Gahhs, and that's the first stick of the day!
Those really sucked alright.
Accompanied by all your stuffs.
Super unfeeling now~!

Since you think everything is within your control, do whatever you want since my objections mean nothing to you.

-The End-
Will post the pics up soon. (:
Super love my classmates especially Shaun, Qiu Mei, Ying Si 'cause they treat me the best.
Special thanks to Mr Terence Wong, Arthur Ngoh, Earnler Liu, Ms Susan Lim, Tan Pui San and everyone for everything.

2008-11-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

和你在一起的每分每秒
就像走过彩虹隧道
到底是要远远看你
还是靠近一点更好
有谁知道我现在矛盾的心跳

I hurt you Baby.I'm terribly sorry for that.
Sorry won't help, but I hope you'll forgive me and let us return to our rightful path towards happiness.
It'll be difficult, but I'll wait for you, for you're the one I truly need and love.

2008-11-08T12:26:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies
Reb: Hahas sure thing. Same to you.
Ge Yun: Will link soon.
rachelzhen: Hahas, you change url never tell me ley!
jolene: Thanks and sorry. :)
Si Ginah: Hahahas yeaps sure. Thanks.
Nurmatha: Shut up spastic child!
Olivia: I will! Hahas. See you soon some day.
Eric: You'll be linked soon buddeh!
Ying Si: Yes super surprised!
someone: Thanks! Same to you. Live well.

2008-11-07T22:00:00.003+08:00

Lately, I feel that I'm wasting my life away so much.
Ahhh! Tiring!
Slept at 6am last night playing internet checkers.
My oh my, can you believe that? :X

Went to collect Mother's conditioner from Darling just now at approx. 8PM and return to Lot1 for a while before going home.
Sighs. Super bored.
Nowhere to go, no idea what to do.
-disappointed

2008-11-04T03:31:00.003+08:00

So sorry Baby.
Sincerely, sorry.
Believe me, I know all that.
But, nowadays, I've got no idea what's gotten into me either.
I really, am very tired.
I didn't really try.
However, I'm still loving you.
Feel me?

2008-11-02T21:03:00.004+08:00

I'm so sorry I frequently write just to rant.
But, I can't help it sometimes.

Lately, life is boring. So much so that I feel so dead.
Nothing is making it any better. Gahhs, depression soon maybe?

You are someone who I give in to, the most, in my 16 years of life.
I pray for your understanding.
We're drifting apart, I feel it.
We may return to where we used to be-hopefully.
I'll learn to cope without you, because you can't be there for me all the time, and when I need you the most.

Love is hateful isn't it? How ironic. Blaas.

2008-10-25T22:06:00.004+08:00

Tag Replies
Enn Mei: Hahahas YEAH LAH! HAO LIAN SIMI!
Rachel: Hahas no problem.
Jolene: Hahahas. :D Saw my tag?
Jerlinda: Take cares too. Thanks. Linked.
BSS Rachel: Will be linked.
Olivia: Thanks! Hahas, belateds. Sorry, kinda busy lately.
Rachel: Hahas I'm fine already. Thanks I will. :)
Karhoe: Lols okays. Link me.
ACP: Hahas I will. Thanks ACP. Fine already. :)
someone: Thanks I will.

When you're in troubles, I don't know how to help you sometimes.
But today, I was happy I'm able to help you smile.
Your radiant smiles melt my heart.
Your idiotic looks brighten up my day.
Your bites are painful, but meaningful.
Your love is unique, but mesmerising.
You drove meaning into my life.
You are my life.
You are important to me because,
I love you so, Baby.

2008-10-23T18:37:00.006+08:00

I've been fucking up my exams so much lately.
I regretted putting down my studies for this and that.
I'm not happy now.

Thanks for your utmost support. I really appreciate it.
I give you whatever you want, I repeat, you WANT, and you have no time for me.
Nevermind, one day, after another, and after another. Its still the same.
Everyday, you'd say: I try. Yah right, you tried, now you know why I hate that word?
Beacuse you'll never do it when you say try.
Friday very free can go out? Why? Because you WANT to extend hair.
Monday to Thursday not free to meet up? Why? Because you don't WANT to.
You don't know what you're busy with? Because you practically ain't busy with anything important.
No time? That day you're going off to JB like 5 mins after, you got the TIME to come to the gate to collect my psp.
So? Yeah you've got NO time, and you WANT to meet me.
Monday till Thursday, NO time. Tuesday and Wednesday you pon.
Whole day at home using computer and you have NO time.
Very supportive of you.
Another reason for not looking for me, because you want me to concentrate and not disturb me, is that it?
Then when you study, next time study alone and don't ask people accompany you kay?
Are all these excuses? C'mon, you know better than me.
I give you what you want, and yeah, I can't even get the time I NEED.
You tell me to tell you when I'm done chilling right?
Thanks girlfriend, what I need is not a time off.
Hey princess, can you ever put down your pride and talk like you're the one in wrong when you are? Like what I did, when I'm in the wrong.
Did I like see wrongly that you wrote you missed me 2 days ago?
Don't seem that way at all.
I won't ask of anything from you anymore kay?
Anyway, it won't happen, you give when you feel like it, you don't when you don't want to.

2008-10-19T18:03:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhh!!!!!!
I'm going crazy!!!!
Tomorrow's my Os and I can't do anything productive.
I don't know why I'm like going crazy.
I don't know what I need you for right now, but I'm missing ya so badly.

2008-10-19T01:15:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies
Olivia: Hahas ohhs. Okays.
allalala: Please say? :D
Rachel: Relinked!
Valerie: Hahahas ohhs okays. ;D Very very very long time no see!
Passerby: Please do not scold her here.
Jojo: Hahas its alright. Hahas. Wells~
Chantel: Thanks loads! You wish me good luck so many times already. Hahas.

Life is so so so boring!
Someone colour it for me please~
Looks like it that we're drifting apart. So far apart that things may not be the same anymore..

2008-10-15T19:40:00.003+08:00

This is my dedication to you:

I guess my hunger for your attention gave birth to your hunger for attention. Recently, I intentionally didn't reply some of your messages, hoping you'd be anxious and, send another message to find out what was I doing or the reason why I didn't reply. Because, no matter what I do, I still feel inferior with regards to treatment compared to :S . I know I really shouldn't compare but I can't help it.

I understand when you say you don't know how to express your love because I don't too. That is why, I'm so desperate in letting you know that I try to satisfy you in whichever ways I can. I try to buy what you want, I keep you company whenever I can, I'll wait for you every week for an hour at Timah if that's what you want. I'm that desperate! Because, I can find no other ways besides using my actions to show you. I really don't ask of much in return. Anything you give is alright even if it means nothing. Every single detail is a comfort to me, a kiss, a hug, your hand, your touch, your smiles, even watching you on a WebCam is enough.

Even if you were to upset me a hundred times, I will forgive you. No matter how many times I say I hate you, I still love you. But I need my time to really cool off. I know you, you're a person who can't put down your pride and just say sorry. I know! You don't have to! Just let me know you are aware of my feelings and you know that you're wrong and I'm fine! My refusal to let you win, is not because I want to pick up a fight, but I really don't want to spoil you. I only want you to know, that what you did really upset me and I don't want to let you feel that I'll always give in to you even thought I do.
I know, you hate people interfering with our relationship. I'm sorry for that.

You know something? I wasn't the kinda person that easily says sorry too. You're the person whom I said sorry to the most in my 16 years of life. Believe me. What is pride to love? I'm willing to put down all these dignity that guys would harp about for you.

I really don't feel cared for enough by you sometimes. Sometimes, my friends saw the length of your reply and they ask me "How come her reply always so short?" I'd be dumbfounded. I don't know how to answer them, and worse still, when I ask myself that question, I can't even answer myself. I really hope sometimes you can feel what I've been going through as well.

I look forward to every Saturday. Because that's the only time we could be intimate. School is an impossible hang out area for us. Its the only time that makes me feel confident that our love could bloom in the end, the only time when I can feel you closer to my heart. Do you know why I want to take down a pic with your messy hair at home? Because, it makes me feel that you're so much closer to me than any other time.

I know you're wild, I know you hate sharing. So I cut whatever intimacies and don't talk much to other girls. But, I can't take all that from you either. I can't accept it. Its not that I want to control you, but because of how well I know you, the more I'm worried, the more I'm anxious. Similarly, I hate my girlfriend flirting with any other guys. Who could tolerate that? Maybe some people can, but certainly not me.

I'm so in love with you I lose myself without you. Get me? I fear as much as you when it comes to breaking up. I've never asked for a break up no matter what you do, because I never wanted it. All I want, is for you to stay

with me for as long as my eyes remain open.

Now,

I'm waiting for your return.

So is he.

So is my heart.

2008-10-14T19:23:00.001+08:00

Wahahas!
Today is impressiveeeeeeee!
Dota after school with Yang Fong and co.
Kicked asses today!
So so so happy lahh!
Yeahs!!!!! Somewhere I can vent it all out finally!
Pawnage!!!!!!! *Blings Blings!*

2008-10-13T19:28:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I really hate you.
Now, I won't care anymore. Do as you please. Have your fun even if it means being with hundreds of guys. I ain't spouting no shit about it anymore because, it doesn't help. Your nothing is indeed nothing.
Think about your reactions if I were to do the same. You place restrictions on me, but you're doing those things which you hate me to do.

.Tag Replies
Passerby#1: Hahas thanks for your well wishings.
Valerie: Of course remember! Linked. Kampong Ginah.
lalalala: Thanks, you are and why am I strawberry?
Esther jie: Sure thing. :D
Olivia: Hahas thanks thanks. You want you put luh. Nvm I don't mind.
Puipui: No problem. :D Thanks too for being a listening ear.
Passerby#2: Sorry, inappropriate to divulge. (:

2008-10-09T20:32:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH VONIEEEE LOVES IT ! BLOGGING ON BEHALF OF LYQ !
he got bird face right ?!!?!?!?!? yes i love his bird face ^^
Okay whatever . byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
BELONG TO ME ONLY SORRY I DONT SHARE (:

2008-10-04T21:14:00.005+08:00

Today is 4th October 2008!
Muahahas. 5th Month with Darling. :)

Darling tried to surprise me.
Hahas, bomb me she wouldn't be coming, but she appeared at my doorstep with a packet of spaghetti she made herself.
Super touched and happy! *Blings blings*
Hehehes. Super sweet.

Sent her to dance studio after that.
Headed to Lot1.
Met up with Gavin and co.
Decided to went to CSC to play LAN and meet Wen Jie, Ah Lum and Leon there and met Bensley coincidentally.

Super fucked up over Gavin just now.
But after DotA-ing and pawning a fair share of them, mood kinda got better.
Shall have another killing spree on them next time.
Headed home after that.

Super sorry for being late Darling.
And of course, BIG BIG THANK YOU TO DARLING, YVONNE CHUA YUE BOON. ILY!
Super happy for what you've done today.
Really appreciate it alot alot.

Adds #1: And she bought her favourite oreo crush for me too and brought it to my house! Supposedly for me, but she drank almost the whole cup though. :D
Adds #2: Definitely, her favourite oreo crush, its a pain for her to tahan till my house to take the first blood.
Darling's complain #1: She complained that her hands almost broke because its very heavy.
Darling's complain #2: Her wallet dropped on the MRT when her hands are filled with with all those heavy items and its damn malu to pick it up and almost fell down.
Darling's complain #3: She complained that I didn't share the spaghetti with her[Who would share right? The first meal your girlfriend make for you surely eat until 干干净净 what!]
Darling's complain #4: She thinks she's damn 可怜 today. ==
Adds #3: Thanks Darling, love you.

2008-10-03T20:08:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies
passerby: Hahahas, you like visit very often. Do we know each other?
Adelind: You too. (: Bang bang.
Rachel: Okays. :)
Siew Hwan: Hahahas. Dim sum.
Shi Man: Nothing to do then tag me. Tsks.

Stayed in school to mug with Ms Tan until 6.30PM.
Yes! I MUGGED! Who's gonna believe that?!
Muahahas. Been a good boy lately. (:
Damn tired lah. Today sucks pretty bad though.

It already sucked in the afternoon.
Thought it'd be nothing, but guess what?
After I reached home from a day of studies and facade, what I thought would please my eyes turned out to be an eyesore.
I let you have freedom, I let you have your fun, but I'm fucking human.
Consider my feelings when you have your fun.
So many fucking times already.

2008-10-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

Tag Replies
passerby: Can you tell me who you are?
Rachel: Hahas yeahs.
Olivia: Thanks lah hahas. Okays okays. (:
Vivien: You never stare at me how you know I stare at you? Aiyoh. To you this kinda person no need to be nice de luh. Hahas, will link you.
Siew Hwan: Hahahas yah lah very nice lah siew mai. Next time go your shop eat dim sum.

Won't post very much. Busy with school recently.
Write when something significant comes up. (:
Byees.

2008-09-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

Tag Replies
merepek: Pick a nicer name next time lah YVONNE CHUA YUE BOON! (: Muahahas noob.
Ms Lok: Ohhs okay I will. Hahas. (: Relinked.
passerby(1&2): I will. Thanks! ;D
Jeslyn: I will lah! Hahahas. Tc of yourself loads.
Puipui: Hahahas okays puipui.
Olivia: Okays meimei! Thanks! ;D

2008-09-22T19:13:00.000+08:00

Ohh boy, I just lovee you so so so much right noww.
Wahahas~

2008-09-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

Muahahahahaha.
Un-private my blog.

So many people pressing me for this.
Hehehehes. xDDDD
Gd nights~

2008-09-15T19:28:00.002+08:00

Yess, I know.
Time and again, I hurt you, I killed you, I upset you, I made you cry, I shatter you.
Its really my fault sometimes, I don't deny at all.
But, neither do I want to hurt you too.
It doesn't make me feel any better, and in fact, when we quarrel, we both suffer.
I know you doubt me now, I don't blame you.
Its my own wrongdoing that led to it, but really, I only want someone to entertain and accompany me just like how you did.

You always keep whatever you think is wrong to yourself, not giving any chance for explanations.
Yeah, some things like you said, are self explanatory, but still, I don't have the chance to speak up for myself too?
After much asking and when you finally speak, you'd be so enraged and upset that whatever I said, makes no sense.
I'm not saying you're in the wrong, honestly, I just want you to know why I did or commit such things.
Nevermind if you can't see it the way I do, if you don't like it, I'll change, I don't mind.
But can you voice out a little? With a much nicer tone? I know you'd be fuming, but please, can you bear with me?

I'm not saying you flirt with guys all the time.
But you know, there's this after that, and that after this.
I'm really unhappy, although I pretend to be all okay about it.
Because I know you're just 14, you want to have your fun, your freedom, your own form of enjoyment too. I'm okay with that. I don't complain like I did last time because I know everyone needs it.
I know I'm not perfect either I'm aware, and it isn't such that I totally exile myself from girls' presence.
Yah I know, sometimes, I still talk to them when I meet them, disturb them a little.
Nothing more than that.
If there're things you found out, really, just speak up, if I'd done it, I really ain't afraid of owning up.
Whatever I did, I'm not afraid of telling others I did it.
If you want to know, I'll tell you.
Maybe there's something else you should know, Ding Yang and Fion and Yan Ling they all came over to my house that afternoon before we went to Vivo for a while.
I really don't want to hide anything from you either.
I'm just really afraid that you'd get all jealous and fed up again.

I know you still doubt me.
Like you said, many are suggesting to you we break up.
Honestly, almost all of my friends did too.
But I know, I can't, I just can't, and I'm unwilling to do so.
I hope you feel the same.
We quarrelled yesterday, and yeah, a very fierry one indeed.
You said you wanted to die and appeared offline immediately.
I called and called for an hour as I was worried sick, I really was.
I have no intention to disturb you, believe me.
When your first reply came, I was relieved tears roll down my cheeks.
I don't know if you would believe me, but this is how it is.
I don't know why, tears keep streaming from my eyes, it practically flowed till I fall asleep.

You can feel my genuine feelings for you, I know it.
I don't mind compromising you all the time.
I never lied to you when I said I love you, and I never did when I said I miss you.
I may appear close to another girl, but my heart only has room for you.
You know I only love you, why worry and make yourself feel insecure?
When I see myself wiping off smiles from your face, and putting on tears in your eyes, it pains myself too. I'm not lying.
Girl, I really can't afford to lose you.
I'm not writing this in private because I'm afraid that others could see this, but because, I don't think I'm ready to show it yet. Because this are all my heartfelt words I kept to myself since we'd been together.
I really love you, you'll always be my Darling.
Even if we were to part, you've occupied a part of my mind.

2008-09-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

Yah fuck all your bull crap.
You really know how to speak of shame.
You got NO IDEA what's shame.
Your own girlfriend telling another guy she loves him!
I really don't want to bring this up but you forced me to.
Yah you're blind, I should die and disappear.
Yah I SUCK!
You forgot whatever I did for you.
I asked a girl for number, YAH I DID!
And if that means all I did and said to you before were FAKE, SO BE IT!
You regret loving me? You hate yourself for loving me right?
GO AHEADD!
I know what I did, and I know I was true to you.
But you fucking disappoint me with all these nonsensical stuffs.
You think I'm lying to you all these while right?
Fine, I'm lying. Happy now?
All that I gave you are nothing in your eyes then so be it!

2008-09-14T18:24:00.002+08:00

Tag Replies
Bunny: Hahahahas! Aisehs, shy sia! Okays, thanks Bunny.
Rachel: I will. xD
Wan Ying: Ohhs its alrights. Will relink soon.
Reb Brother: Lols, wthhh!
Shaun: Lols, ohhs. Am I suppose to thank you for saying that?
Vonieee: Wait, you'll have your turn soon.
Adelind: Will relink soon. (:
Si Ginah: Lols! You ingrate! Now you want to side outsider liao lah!
Passerby: Ohhs thanks. You are?

Went to grandma's house.
Had buffet lunch there.
The dishes is really horrendous.
Napped a little and headed home.
Today is a boring day~!

2008-09-13T19:48:00.002+08:00

Very sick today.
Got a high fever of 39.5 degrees.
Aching everywhere now.

But, Darling came to visit me.
Hahas, wanted to give me a surprise but she was lost.

The fever subsided a little as the day went by.
Thanks Darling.

2008-09-12T21:54:00.003+08:00

i finally smile (:

am i cute ?

hehe i love vonieee;smellylaoda

when he see this he gonna kill me man ! i tell him im posting for him & he tell me he very touch hahahahhah ! Yeah i hope he will be so " touching" gagagagagaga !

2008-09-11T19:13:00.004+08:00

Tag Replies
Adelind: Hahas, okays. Tc too.
Shi Hui: Ohhs okays. (:
ACP: Okays~ Thanks soooo much these days.
Jia Hui: I will I will. Don't worry. :DD Linked Ah Lian.
Rachel: I'll try kay? Hahas.
Lao Zhu: Okays linked. Respects to you.
Bunny: Thanks Mei for your concerns. Loyal reader of my blog! :)

Hahas! Pon today, no mood to do my exams.
Wait for DY to finish his 1 hour paper and wait for her at the bus stop.
Headed to polyclinic to get MC and medicine for my cough.
The doctor is fucking gl!
Bensley came after that.
Headed to West Mall after we're done at the clinic.
Ate at the food court and we shared lunch.
DY watched us and Bensley eat.
Send her home after we ate and we headed to Lot1.
Basketball and went home.
Forgot take medicine, earpiece and my keys.
Lao Zhu and co. and Clique was there too.
It was crowded there today.
Saw Dao Hong and Gavin too on my way home.
-End-

Happy today.
I was so happy during the holidays, but now we're back to square one.

2008-09-10T21:52:00.003+08:00

Today is great. So much better.
Hahas.
Thanks for all the care I received.
Especially from Ding Yang, Jun Kai and Leon!
ACP too, thanks for being there 24/7.

So much happened that I really can't accept it the way it is now.
I know its true,
help me feel it,
help me see it,
help me sense it,
because I can't.
I don't feel safe anymore.
Its painful, I know.

2008-09-09T18:30:00.005+08:00

We're through today. (:
I lost my fun the moment you're gone.
Bye. Its not just those misses.
You still left in the end, because of him.

Ha! My mother got me this time.

Adds:
I love my all my friends! Thank you guys so much!

2008-09-08T20:43:00.004+08:00

Monday, September 8, 2008
Fucked my exams up today!
My head was painful, my stomach isn't good either.
And my coughs, its dreadful.
I can't get my mind on it, totally!

Managed to pull through ultimately.
Slacked at the canteen till Leon, Boon and Bert are dismissed.
Bla bla bla, Lot1, Northvale to swim and went home.

Its not how I treat you anymore. Its how you treat me and how you treat him.
You told me you love me the most. I want to believe it, trust me, I was delighted to see that, I may sound harsh and offensive, but I only hoped to be sure, and assured.
Because, you don't see things the way I do. Action speaks louder than words.
When he left, you held on to him, and when I walk out on you, you don't go after me.
You changed so much to his likes in the past, but you never did, to mine.
If you quarrelled with him and he ignores you, you spam him, but all you do, is ignore me when it happens to us.
You told me I'm the only love you need, and yet, you plead so much for just his attention alone.
If he were to say he love you now, there's a high possibility that you'd stay with me, but won't you live with remorse and regret?
You said you wouldn't leave me ever again, but now you tell me, these are difficult to predict.
You said I'm always in your mind, yeah, now there's somebody else in it.
You said you will love me deep as sea, wide as sky, then how could your love for him be described in words?
You said you need me all your life, and I'm your hope, really?
Why do you think time passes by so quickly for us? Is it because you enjoyed it, or did you treasure it less than that of his?
You want me to think of you day and night, I did, but could you do it now?
Are all that you said to me real? I really hoped they are.
But I'm sorry, I glared at that paper before I slept, and I almost had a sleepless night.
I don't know if what you said are true anymore, I want to believe it, god, believe me.
But things aren't showing it the way you wrote it.
You know how much I cherish you and love you.
Jacqueline can understand how you feel, but she can't understand how I feel.
When you're gone, I'm lost myself.
Even if I were to leave now, will you hold me back? Honestly.

2008-09-07T19:33:00.004+08:00

Sunday, September 7, 2008
Ohh geez, even the time wouldn't let me off. 7.07PM when I switched on the computer.

Out the whole day.
Met up with Ding Yang.
Ate lunch and went to Jolene's house for a while.
Was trying to take a nap on the sofa.
Then went to Daphne's condo to meet Darling.
Sent her to CCK interchange again after that.
She lost her EZ link card, how stupid. Hahas.
Home after that.
I'm fucking unwell now.

A little bit is enough.
You Know how much more that is.

2008-09-07T00:09:00.005+08:00

Tag Replies
Chantel: Hahas okays dumbo!
Adelind: What's wrong with you showing me that puny idiotic little face? *Jk~
Jojo: Hahas, find time one day luh~ Pool one fine day? Jio you out soon yah Daaaaarling? *fake~ Hahahas!
Daphne: Relinked.
Olivia: Relinked. Its alrights.
Bunny: Heya! Long time no see ley Bunny. Meet up soon yahs?
Siew Hwan: Hahahas yeahs! Long time no see. Never diao Lot already? Catch up with ya someday.
Esther jie: No laa~ Hahas. Busy? Not much time recently. Many things to cope with. Will go find you someday at Toa Payoh de lah! Still so vulgar sia you. Never change. Tsks. How's baby?
Yan Ling: Hahahas long time never see you mah acp! Take care loads too yahs?

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Woke up at 10++AM.
Thought things wasn't right in the beginning but Darling was just lazy.
Zzzz?

Fetch her from Yew Tee MacDonalds at 12++Noon to home.
Mother was most irritating. Ahhs~
Bought Darling lunch, lunch-ed at the living room and all.
Sent Darling off to the Choa Chu Kang interchange after that at 2.15PM.

Went to meet up with Glenndon, Gavin, Xiao Gou, Wilson, Rayhan, ACP and Co. at Lot1.
Jone Lum, Yang Fong, Jeremie, Dao Hong, Hao Zhi, Hao Jie, Johnathan, Boon Kiat, Leon, , Hiromei, Jolene and a few others came later.
Didn't see them all for sucha long time.
Did some serious catching up.
Fucking miss the old times when we had fun together everyday.
Gahhhs.

Went to 214 to basketball.
Northvale as they want to swim after that too.
And I left for home, alone.
Then, it was 9++PM.

Maybe going to meet them tomorrow again.
Feels great to see them all again suddenly.

I will not let my feelings be a burden to you right now. (:
Just help me feel more important, could you?

I'm coughing like mad now and my throat is fucking pain. Shouldn't have touched those sticks in the afternoon. I don't think I should be stickin' around anymore.
Hahas. Nights.

*all tags replied
*Chantel relinked
*Daphne relinked
*Olivia relinked

2008-09-06T00:41:00.003+08:00

Friday, September 5, 2008

Ahhh yes, I'm still on the net on this unearthly hour.
Okays, perhaps not as late as it sounds but it is already Saturday now.

I'm so not suppose to be writing here as I'm damn sick.
But I'm damn bored stricken and restless that I simply can't get my ass on the bed now.
A little hungry too.

Browsed through some of my Hia Di's blogs and friendster profiles.
Seemed so that they're doing fine as I really is absent from their Clique for quite a while.
Just don't feel so belonging anymore. Maybe because I'm not There anymore.

Thought back of the past.
A little foolish to think of it but I didn't regret making choosing this path.
Today will never come if I hadn't been foolish before.

I'm happy now-satisfied.
I got what I desired in life.
A lovely girlfriend who I can spend a great time with.
I don't know how long this fantasy can last, but as long as its still there, I'll cherish it.
Because this is the feeling I lost and crave for since, a long time ago.

Darling would be coming over tomorrow.
Ahhs~ Gonna go grab a bite!

Hahahas, I'm crapping lots now.
Maybe I'm still a little sick?
Perhaps?
Maybe.
Yeah.

2008-09-04T13:53:00.003+08:00

Thursday, September 4, 2008
Rotting at home. Chatting with Darling.
Maybe going to meet Ding Yang later.
Happy 4th Month Darling.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Out with Darling the whole day.
Met at 11am at Gombak MRT Station.
Then trained to Bugis.
Shopped and jalan jalan and then went to Vivo to buy shoes.
Ate at LJS and trained to Yew Tee.

Blablabla and cabbed her home at 7++PM. (:

Darling look cute and funny today.
Ahahahahahas!

2008-09-01T21:31:00.003+08:00

Monday, September 1, 2008

Meet up with Wen Xuan and Ding Yang often these few days.
Unwell now, fallen ill I suppose.
Bad throat and coughs again.

So sorry again Darling.
I know how you feel now.
Imy.

2008-08-26T19:29:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

School, Lot1, Home.

With Bensley, Yang, Glenndon, Jun Kai and a few others.
Slacked and talked alot of cock.
Bensley's pimple got punched and it bled non stop.
Ahahahas.

Home after that.
I miss her loads now.
Where are you?

2008-08-25T20:43:00.006+08:00

Tag Replies
Olivia: Hahahas! You most wu xim de ley. Straight come find me, of course must put your name mah! Sorry that time have to go and you can't celebrate with me. :P
Jojo: Yah lahs yah lahs! Hahas Jojo rocks. Thanks for being there all the time. :D
Jeslyn: Heng I clever! All of you kn bua cake. Stuuuuupid! :X
Si Ginah: Hahahas okays. Recently busy. Catch up with ya soon again.
Shi Man: Linked.
Rachel: Hahas okays thanks.
Anna: O.o yahs?

Monday, August 25, 2008

Schooled and school wasn't great at all.
Damn tired, chat with Yang, Xuan and co. yesterday night.
Fooled around outside the staff room for a while with Ah Lum and JOHNNY!
AHAHAHAHAS.

Okays, then left school with Darling.
Went to Lot1, and the security guard was damn spoiler. Gahhs.
Went to the interchange to send her off.

Then slacked and all and wait for Yang to come.
Met up, ate and went to 214 for basketball.

Went to Lot1 again after that.
Slacked for a little while and home-d.
Today was slightly better. I guess? (:

Whenever you walk away, I didn't walk away, I always wait there for your return.
It isn't because I don't care, I don't want to control you like what I did before anymore.
Or we'd quarrel non-stop again and I want to give you the freedom you deserve.

*all tags replied
*Jeslyn linked
*Shi Man linked
I trust and hope that you won't overdo things.

2008-08-24T19:52:00.002+08:00

My mood is as down as that of the downpour out of my windows.
Drenched when I got home.

First, I got no idea why you keep worrying unduely.

Second, yes, I'm pretending. I saw what I shouldn't have.

Yah, I suck, I'm useless. I pretend to care. I'm wrong. What more can I be?
I'm deteriorating. I'm a useless boyfriend. I'm even a useless friend.
I told you I would keep my nose out of this shit, and I stayed out of it.
I told them I know no shit. Yes, I lied to them.
But Kevin came to look me up, how you want me to stay out of it?
You told me to keep away and I did, now your people come after me, how am I going to stay out of it?

And up till now, I hadn't do anything yet. Yah, I suck! I'm a failure.
Wen Xuan found out and he'd be doing this thing.
I ain't getting myself involved, for you, myself and my friends.

2008-08-22T20:07:00.002+08:00

She's cute and I love her.

When you grow used to loving someone, you won't realise that you love her so much until something happens.